You're Acting Weird...

So I have this friend...who will remain nameless.

We met each other last Fall semester and, in my opinion, have become extremely good friends. We text a lot and Snapchat a lot and just genuinely get along and have a good time together...

Until this past week.

He is acting so weird now. I honestly have no idea what happened. I have asked him if I've done something wrong but he simply says it is because he is busy with school...I don't buy it.

If he is too busy to talk to me how does he have time to go on dates and hang out with all these other people? I'm not saying he needs to be talking to me all day everyday, I just want things back to how they used to be...

This always happens to me. I will become really good friends with someone and things will be going great and then one day they just stop talking to me and I have no idea why. I never get an explanation they just completely ignore me.

I don't understand...with others it was just a "whatever" kind of a thing but he is a really good friend to me...I don't want to lose his friendship.

I guess all I can do is keep trying...hopefully one day soon things will be back to the way they were.

I Don't Even Know...

A lot has happened lately.

I don't even know where to start. Last night some of my throwers graduated. I'm sad. I have grown really close to them and they have become som of my best friends. Now they are all moving away or going on missions.

Literally they will all be gone:
Nori-back to Norway
Grrrrrr-mission
Jacoby-moving to Utah
Brian-Vegas and then a mission
Nighthawk-mission

I don't even know when I'm going to see them again.

Also...basically everyday since Saturday night has been a panic attack. My life <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Why does this happen to me? People try to comfort me and tell me that I can do it but honestly I can't.

This is something I can't handle anymore. I'm so sick of feeling this way. I'm seriously done.

If You're Happy And You Know It...Just Say So

Well hi there!! It has been almost a month since I've written. Better than usual but still not good...

School is going really well. I am getting my work done on time and getting good grades on my assignments so all in all things are great :]

I love my classes!! I love that they are all my major classes and I don't have to do any foundations classes anymore. Ugh...those classes suck.

My roommate is awesome and my apartment is amazing so that is making things a lot better as well. :]

So I was doing my homework today and I went to check what I had due in my International Politics class...I completely forgot we don't have class tomorrow!! When I looked at the schedule and saw that I freaked. Literally. Ask my roommate. I was jumping up and down screaming!! Man I am still so happy!!

I have a test on Friday and a test on Monday so I am thankful I now have a lot more time open to dedicate to studying.

I am jealous of my teacher though...He will be in D.C. which is why we don't have class. I miss D.C.

I had a dream Monday night that I was there and that I got to see Kraig again. I miss him more than anyone knows...more than I even thought I did. Why did things have to end like they did?? I wish that we lived closer to each other ...

Oh well maybe I'll see him when I move back next year. I hope to be able to see all of my friends when I go back. I know that some of them are married or are getting married but I'm certain I'll be able to make things work.

Oh by the way I should probably tell you that I am on track to graduate next July!! :] I'm super happy about that as well!! I have been doing this whole college thing for WAY too long. I'll be done soon though...YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA! YAY!!

Any way...I'm on the phone so I'm going to end this now but I will be so much better at blogging I...sort of promise ;]

My Brain Is Going To Explode

Well...it's been a while.

I started school this week (Monday, April 22, 2013). Classes are going really well. This semester is going to be ... intense. I don't have a social life to begin with but if I did the semester would severely damage it.

My schedule is as follows:
POLSC150 Foreign Government: 0745-0845 MWF
FDREL341 Church History: 0900-1000 MW
POLSC311 State and Local Government: 1400-1500 MWF
FDCNC350 Foundations Capstone: 0900-1000 TR
POLSC170 International Politics: 1130-1300 TR

I really love my classes...with the exception of the Capstone class. My teachers are phenomenal. Seriously, they rock.

My Capstone class is ridiculous. The whole point of the class is to get us out of our comfort zone and voice our opinions ... I don't have a problem with this. At all. Ever. Stupid class but I have to take it in order to graduate. So far I have heard people voicing their opinions and I can't help but think that the only reason they are saying anything is to hear themselves talk. Whatever though, I can suffer through.

Anywho...My apartment is amazing!! I live at the same place still and I love it. I am in the handicap apartment because there is a lot more room for Rogue. I have one roommate, Kristin. She is amazing. I love her :] We each have our own room and that is fantastic.

All in all I feel that this semester is going to be amazing. I am really excited to get this ball rolling and to finish school. I only have two more semesters after this one and I couldn't be more excited!! I'm in a really good place right now.

The only thing I wish I had that I don't right now is my friends. They are all either in Blackfoot or Utah. *sigh* Such is my life... Oh well.

That's about it for me today.

Oh wait!! My little brother called today...HIS MISSION CALL HAS BEEN ASSIGNED AND IT IS IN THE MAIL!! That means next week we will know where he will be for the next two years!!

Man I love that kid.

One Does Not Simply Walk Into Mordor.

Today is ... Amazing, to say the least. My friends, Brian, Jacoby, Anette, and Taylor, came over early this morning (well everyone except Taylor who showed up two hours after she should have been here...haha) to watch all three Lord of the Rings movies. Anette, my friend from Norway, watched the Hobbit with me for the first time and loved it so we decided to watch the other movies since it has been a while since we have all seen it.

But that isn't even the best part! All of us are literally hanging out all day. Anette has soccer at 1630 and Jacoby has to ref basketball at 1700, other than that everyone is mine all day!

We are going to go out later when it is dark and do what young adults in Blackfoot, Idaho do...toilet paper our friend's houses and steal street signs.

After we are done with that Nori (Anette), Taylor and I are kicking the boys out and having a girls night. I am so excited :)

It is really nice to be able to have some time to spend with my friends before I move away. Like I said in my last post I have mixed feelings about going to school...but everything has to happen for a reason so I'm just going with it.

I am doing really well lately...and it is all thanks to these four people, especially Brian. My friends are the best.