Break Is...

Boring.

Man I am so bored. It's terrible. It's nice to have a break from school but I miss my friends. I miss the social life that I had. I miss...Rexburg.

There, I said it.

But really. I had the best semester EVER last semester. I met so many amazing people and made some of the best friends ever. And then the semester ended and everyone moved and I don't know when I'll get to see a lot of them again... :[

It's a depressing thought.

I think I'll make a list of the things that I miss: reminisce about the activities and people that have undoubtedly changed my life forever.

• Volleyball. Everyday. For at least 4 hours.
• My Birds and their motorcycles.
• Rogue's strange obsession with Cody Bird.
• Late night walks around Rexburg.
• Running to Wendy's.
• Bridge jumping.
• Movie nights.
• Ward activities. Basically every day.
• My FHE group. Seriously amazing.
• Driving Trevor's truck.
• Trying to get Trevor to go to the doctor for his broken ankle.
• Trevor on painkillers.
• Vanilla Mt. Dew.
• Knocking on peoples' car windows in the temple/stake center parking lot while they were making out asking if they needed help.
• Watching Jacob Bird attempt a cartwheel.
• Water balloon fights.
• Watching an absurd amount of Bones.
• Speaking Chinese around people who don't understand.
• Dancing in the rain.
• Just Dance parties.
• Fried pickles and Cards Against Humanity.
• Paco's Tacos baseball games.
• Emma taking Natalie out during soccer.
• Buffalo Wild Wings.

I could seriously go on forever. This last semester was amazing and I'm excited to see what the next semester will bring.

Two Down and Three To Go

Well I'm done with two classes for the semester. Like actually done with them. Finals turned in and everything.

Weird.

No, you know what's weird...? I had my last college religion class ever today. Five years later! Crazy to think I graduate next semester. I don't want to be a big kid!!

So my friend and I went on a walk last nigh...well this morning (it was 2:00 am :]). This creepy truck was following us. It turned around several times following us. So of course we started running and took this weird route home so they wouldn't follow us.

Yeah ... we almost got abducted. Scary. Scary. Scary.

My friend lost her shoes in the process. They fell off and we just kept going. No stopping for us.

Rexburg flooded yesterday!! Oh my gosh funniest story ever:

So my best friend Kyle calls me and asks if I want to go to Costa Vida. Well of course the answer is yes. So he comes over but I had just started doing my hair and makeup. I was bored so I decided to try and get cute.

So he's waiting for like 20 minutes here while I finish my hair. We then head to go pick up my friend so she can come with us. As we're driving we see his brother on his motorcycle. It had just started to rain so we asked if he wanted a ride. "No I'm fine. It's only sprinkling."

Haha he spoke WAY too soon. He zoomed away and then it began to hail. He was on his motorcycle at the light in front of us and Kyle and I were watching him try and duck out of the way of the golf ball sized hail. It was hilarious.

We were nice and followed him to the gas station and gave him a ride to work. But wait it gets better...

When we left my apartment I sent a text to my friend telling her we were on our way. So she left her friend's apartment to wait on the street for us. And then it began to hail...

She was standing out in it when it hit. Haha she was super mad that we were taking a while. But when she found out we saved Cody she wasn't upset anymore.

So then everything died down a little and we dropped off Cody and were on our way to Costa and we see another friend, Trevor. I yelled out the window at him to get in the car because we were going to Costa. Literally as soon as he closed the car door it began to hail and rain again. Like HARD. It was ridiculous.

You couldn't even see two cars in front of you it was so bad.

So we drive back to my apartment and run screaming into my apartment to eat our food. The rain kept coming down and Kyle decides he wants to go out in it. He goes out and is playing around ("It's a whirlpool!") and decides to go help at some apartments that flooded. The big dumb waded into chest deep water with his phone in his pocket. Pull out the rice...

Haha Yesterday was ridiculous.

I took a picture of my baby sleeping to end out the night. So fun :]

One Year Down, One To Go.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Mike is half-way done with his mission! I am so excited for him to come home!!

This past year has been soooo long. Seriously. The longest year ever.

I'm so happy right now. :]

I've missed my best friend so much and I can't wait to see him.

:] :]

I Love(ish) Mondays

Monday=Missionary email day.

Love.

I love getting to hear from my baby brother. He's my best friend and I miss him so, so , so much. He's almost been out on his mission for a year! It seriously has been the longest year ever!

He's doing good work though so it's all good. He'll be home soon :]

Today. I Want To Die...

I haven't actually seriously wanted to kill myself in a long time.

Right now would be perfect: my roommate is gone, everyone is in bed/at home because of curfew...I'm totally alone.

I could just cut my wrists. Take even more of the meds I shouldn't take (I've already taken 5x the amount I should.) I could hang myself. Stab myself. Drink some bleach. Run in front of a car. I want to do it all.

I'm sick of struggling. I'm sick of being alone and having to deal with this by myself. I'm sick of hurting.

I just want it all to end. What do I have to do for that to happen?

At this point...I'll do anything.