I Don't Even Know...

A lot has happened lately.

I don't even know where to start. Last night some of my throwers graduated. I'm sad. I have grown really close to them and they have become som of my best friends. Now they are all moving away or going on missions.

Literally they will all be gone:
Nori-back to Norway
Grrrrrr-mission
Jacoby-moving to Utah
Brian-Vegas and then a mission
Nighthawk-mission

I don't even know when I'm going to see them again.

Also...basically everyday since Saturday night has been a panic attack. My life <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Why does this happen to me? People try to comfort me and tell me that I can do it but honestly I can't.

This is something I can't handle anymore. I'm so sick of feeling this way. I'm seriously done.

If You're Happy And You Know It...Just Say So

Well hi there!! It has been almost a month since I've written. Better than usual but still not good...

School is going really well. I am getting my work done on time and getting good grades on my assignments so all in all things are great :]

I love my classes!! I love that they are all my major classes and I don't have to do any foundations classes anymore. Ugh...those classes suck.

My roommate is awesome and my apartment is amazing so that is making things a lot better as well. :]

So I was doing my homework today and I went to check what I had due in my International Politics class...I completely forgot we don't have class tomorrow!! When I looked at the schedule and saw that I freaked. Literally. Ask my roommate. I was jumping up and down screaming!! Man I am still so happy!!

I have a test on Friday and a test on Monday so I am thankful I now have a lot more time open to dedicate to studying.

I am jealous of my teacher though...He will be in D.C. which is why we don't have class. I miss D.C.

I had a dream Monday night that I was there and that I got to see Kraig again. I miss him more than anyone knows...more than I even thought I did. Why did things have to end like they did?? I wish that we lived closer to each other ...

Oh well maybe I'll see him when I move back next year. I hope to be able to see all of my friends when I go back. I know that some of them are married or are getting married but I'm certain I'll be able to make things work.

Oh by the way I should probably tell you that I am on track to graduate next July!! :] I'm super happy about that as well!! I have been doing this whole college thing for WAY too long. I'll be done soon though...YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA! YAY!!

Any way...I'm on the phone so I'm going to end this now but I will be so much better at blogging I...sort of promise ;]