Jar of Hearts

I know that I shouldn't be worrying about whether boys like me or not or whether I go on dates all the time or when I'm going to get married. It will happen in its own time and I understand that...

What I don't understand is why the only boys that do ever talk to me or want to go on dates with me are the wrong ones for me. They want to use me and do things that I don't want to do.

Why does this always happen to me?? Do I have a sign on my forehead that says I'm okay with it?? Because I'm definitely not okay with it...I'm sick of it.

Maybe I'm just thinking that is what everyone is out to do to me...maybe I'm not. I don't know. All I know is that I am alone. I feel angry all the time. I'm not happy. I don't want to do anything.

I just want all of this to go away. I want to be happy. I want to have friends. I want to go and do stuff.

I see my family and they are all happy and I want that.

I see my best friend Dani and she is SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy ... and I want that.

I want what they all have. But it seems like no matter how hard I try it never seems to happen.

What am I doing wrong...can someone tell me??