My Life Lately...Sucks

Well it's been a while. Sorry about that...

Since the last time I posted I have finished my third semester up at BYU-I (do) and have moved home. I got As and Bs so I'm pretty happy :]

Since moving home so much drama has happened in my  life. Oh. My. Gosh. That is one of the reasons I don't like living in a small town like Blackfoot. One person can start a bunch of crap and within hours everyone knows about it. It is so annoying.

Now this isn't the first time I've had drama in my life and rumors spread around about me. And I'm pretty sure it won't be the last. For some reason this crap flocks towards me. It is usually always because people are jealous of me (which I have no idea why they would be...)

Lately it has been because a boy from around here liked me and we hung out but it wasn't going anywhere. I told him things weren't going anywhere and we should stop hanging out because I didn't like him like he liked me. Well...that didn't work they way I had hoped. He kept texting me and calling me, which is fine but not at all hours of the night and day.

So I finally told him that I didn't want to hear from him anymore because he was getting clingy and it was starting to really creep me out. Well....that also didn't work out the way I had hoped. He didn't seem to get it that I didn't want to have anything to do with him.

He kept telling me that he liked me so much and cared so much about me and he didn't understand why...blah blah blah. So he kept trying to text me and talk to me but I was busy and had already told him to leave me alone so our conversations were very short and I tried so hard to make him realize that I didn't want to talk to him.

So if that wasn't annoying enough...he began to insult me. It first started right before I moved home and I had had it. I told him to never text me again and I was done with him. Yeah...once again he didn't seem to get it.

I just ignored him until I moved home and then I couldn't anymore. Why, you ask? Because he decided to start a rumor that I was hooking up with this kid (who just happens to be one of my little brother's friends and who just happens to be living at my house because he couldn't go home...long story).

For obvious reasons I was furious. I told him to stop talking about me and to me and to just leave me alone. Yet again he didn't get it. And then the insults got worse.

Well two weeks down the road to Friday things just kept getting worse.

I'm going to use B for the crazy kid and L for the one living at my house.

B invited L to come over for a movie and my mom was PISSED. She called L in from outside and started yelling at him about how he could do that after all had been done and said to me and about me. Well B just happened to be outside my house at this point and that is when I looked at L and said "How could you invite him over here? Really?"

L told B to leave and I went in and talked to L about the whole situation and why my mom was so upset. Well TWO hours after this went down I get a text from B that said "What was that? Are you trying to ruin all of my relationships starting with mine and L's?" Once again, for obvious reasons, I was furious. I hadn't done anything and here he was accusing me of something I hadn't done (this wasn't the first time he's done that either).

I wanted all of this to be over and L decided that B and I needed to sit down and talk it out face to face.

Well long story short we met up and "talked" (more like I asked him why he was doing all of this crap and he couldn't even talk because he had no reason). His excuse for all of this was that he was having a bad day (Every time he was an ass to me? Really?) That was what he stuck to up until L decided that he should put in his two cents and he said that I'm scary and people lose their train of thought around me because I scare them and they just say whatever comes in to their mind. That is what B started using as an excuse now.

Finally I just said "Whatever it's over I'm done with all of this. If you want to talk to me, whatever do it. I can't and don't do drama so whatever has to be done to end all of this I'll do it."

So there we are. You'd think after all of this he would begin to think it would be a good idea to leave me alone. Yeah, you'd be wrong. He texted me THE NEXT DAY asking how I was doing and how things were going and blah blah blah. Like nothing had ever happened. Ugh I was/am so annoyed.

I don't know why he doesn't get it...I've been telling him for MONTHS to leave me alone because he was getting clingy/creepy/rude/scary/etc and nothing happened.

I'm hoping that he'll get it soon because I'm not texting him back or calling or answering calls or anything. He just needs to leave me alone.

Anyone who knows me knows that I don't do drama. I don't have people in my life that start/are the cause of drama. It doesn't happen. Anyone who knows me also knows that I don't do clingy/controlling people.

I was in a terrible relationship for almost three years and that is exactly how it was. There is no way I am letting anyone do that to me ever again. I'm not going to allow someone in to my life who feels that treating ANYONE this way is acceptable. It isn't and it never will be.

Seriously though, if he doesn't start to leave me alone...I'm going to punch him straight in the face until he gets it.

On a happier note: MY SISTER AND NEPHEW WILL BE HERE ON SATURDAY!! Yes. My heart is so happy. Through all of the dark clouds created by others, my family shines through and brightens my life. <3>