Walks, iPods, and Scary Movies

Oh man...IT'S MY LAST SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a little excited... :]

So far everything has been going well. Okay well I've had a couple of bad days. And by bad days I mean horrible, terrible, disastrous days.

But I have the most amazing friends. Better than I've ever had before in my entire life.

Let me go to the beginning and give you a little insight:

I have lived in the same apartment complex the whole time I have been in Rexburg. My ward has been the same, most of the people have been the same, everything has basically been the same.

Well this semester everything changed. New ward, new bishopric, new roommates and people in the ward. I don't like change. I had such a bitter taste in my mouth about this new ward. I was not excited at all.

But I decided I needed to change that. I didn't want to hate my ward my last semester of college. My roommate Jessica (I could do an entire post about her...and I probably will. And by probably I mean I'm going to. :]) and I went around to all of the boys apartments to meet them. It was out of both of our bubbles and we were very hesitant. BEST. DECISION. EVER.

We met the most amazing people and they have been some of the best friends anyone could ever ask for.

Apt. 116: Jackson, Johnny, Coco, and TayTay. They are our FHE brothers and the funniest apartment ever. They make me laugh so much. They go on my walk with me all the time and it is just awesome every time we are together (even when Johnny is creepily commenting on my pants and pocket shirt...haha).

Apt. 107: Lake, Hayden, Steven, Chad, and Jake. Where do I even begin. They are the best. We have all literally hung out every day since then (September 21). It has been so amazing. We have watched movies and I've cooked for them and I've cleaned for them and we've played iPod Idol (amazing.) and we sing all the time. I haven't met such amazing people in a long time.

I want to talk about one of these guys especially. He has helped me so much. The bad days that I've had this semester have been some of the worst I've ever had. Ever. And he has been there every time. He hasn't judged me and he hasn't shunned me or shied away. No one has ever been there for me like he has. I never expect that when I tell him I'm not doing well that he will drop everything and come over and just hold me and let me cry...but he does. I've never experienced that before. I am so amazed at the fact that he cares for me this much to be here for me.

Now I'm not saying he 'cares for me' in a way that he LIKES me. But that he considers me as such a good friend that it is worth being there for me at all hours of the day and night.

If you've read some of the rest of my posts you can probably tell that I have no self esteem whatsoever. So I've never felt worthy of that kind of care. I've never felt like anyone cared. And this semester is starting to change that. I'm starting to feel like I deserve friends and that I won't be judged.

This semester has been so great in so many ways. I'm starting to feel better about myself. I'm getting out of my comfort zone and meeting new people. I feel loved.

It's a nice feeling. :]

This semester is going to keep getting better. I just know it. And I'm so excited.

:]