I wish I could say this to you ... but I know you won't get it

Stop. Just stop. Stop babying me. Stop forcing me to do stuff because "research shows..." Just stop.

You aren't making anything any better. I know you get frustrated with my mood swings and the fact that I am irritable...but believe me, I am ten million times more frustrated. Do you think that I like being happy one minute and then want to punch you in the face the next?? No. I hate this. I hate it so much but there is nothing that any of us can do about it.

You think that by staying so close to me and making a daily routine for me you are helping me but you are only making it worse. Seriously ... I know you are trying to help but it isn't. It really isn't. I know this is hard for you. It's hard for me too, but I just need you here to support me not force me to do stuff because you think that it will make things better. Just hug me and tell me it will be ok. Let me lay in bed all day because it is what I need. Don't TELL me what I'm going to be doing all summer.

I wish with all my heart that this would all just go away ... but it won't. Nothing I can do can ever make this go away. I wish that I could tell you this. I wish that you could understand. But you won't. You'll tell me that I'm just whining or that it will be good for me...

Just please...please...stop