One minute I am happy
The next minute I could punch someone
Or I'm crying
I have more ups and downs than a roller coaster
And the worst part about it is the hell I put my family through
They deserve better than to have me in their life
They don't need this
I feel terrible about what I put them through
When I'm having bad days or I'm in bad moods I seclude myself away from them because they don't deserve that
And I hate that when they try to come see if I'm ok I'm rude to them
I don't want them to have to put up with me anymore
They deserve so much better
I hate myself
Susan,
ReplyDeleteWe love you! And that's what family's for...to be there through EVERYTHING! Don't say these things about yourself. It's these kinds of statements that really put us through hell because it scares us to think of not having you in our lives!
We love you! I love you!
M.