Family

You should feel loved by your family, right?

You should be able to turn to them with questions and concerns and when you are having a bad day, right?

This is so true for my family with one exception...Peter.

My entire life he has picked on me. Now let's get something straight, we all picked on each other growing up. It's what siblings do. But the way Peter treated me (and how he still does) was above and beyond normal sibling rivalry.

I've never once in my entire life felt loved by him. When ever I am around him he tears me down and tells me that everything I'm doing is wrong. I have NEVER heard a good thing come from him when it is about me or something that I am doing.

He criticizes everything I do: the way I talk, the way I act, everything.

He is the only one in the family I don't feel close to. I can't just call him up with problems I have and talk to him about them like I can with my Mom, Dad, John, Grant, Madi, and Mike. I can even call and talk to my sister-in-law and brother-in-law about anything and everything. But I can't do that with Peter. He doesn't listen to me and just tells me to get over it all.

I just want him to love me. I'm sure that if my parents talk to him or my siblings he'll say that he does but I don't see it...ever. I feel that it would be accurate to say that he talks the talk but doesn't walk the walk.

I just want him to see how much he has hurt me. How much he continues to hurt me with what he says and how he treats me.

I just want him to love me and treat me like he treats all of my other siblings.

I guess I can wish all I want but I highly doubt anything will change...I'm almost 23 years old and I don't feel, and have never felt, loved by my brother. If it hasn't happened by now it probably isn't going to.